August 17th, 2009
I still havent found a job, well, at least a good one, and its been hard to not feel frustrated. I am still enjoying the days I have had to spend time on the beach, see my family and friends and tie up loose ends of things I dont want to procrastinate about. I guess the problem with too much free time, is too much time to think, although I dont see why that should be a bad thing. I think its easier to remain busy and distracted than it is to face the bothersome things about ourselves and where we are in life. Perhaps I need to grow more comfortable with the idea of not finding my dream just yet, the universe still has not aligned itself. That doesnt mean I have resigned myself to make no effort; in fact, I am constantly restrategizing my efforts. All in all, it just means I have more time to smell the roses, if I choose to stop, and more time to enjoy San Diego, swimming in the ocean, picking up seaweed on the beach and doing some of the things I have been meaning to do- like get to know my brother and sister, file for divorce, make photo albums, cook new foods, ride my bike more and feel love everyday.
I still havent found a job, well, at least a good one, and its been hard to not feel frustrated. I am still enjoying the days I have had to spend time on the beach, see my family and friends and tie up loose ends of things I dont want to procrastinate about. I guess the problem with too much free time, is too much time to think, although I dont see why that should be a bad thing. I think its easier to remain busy and distracted than it is to face the bothersome things about ourselves and where we are in life. Perhaps I need to grow more comfortable with the idea of not finding my dream just yet, the universe still has not aligned itself. That doesnt mean I have resigned myself to make no effort; in fact, I am constantly restrategizing my efforts. All in all, it just means I have more time to smell the roses, if I choose to stop, and more time to enjoy San Diego, swimming in the ocean, picking up seaweed on the beach and doing some of the things I have been meaning to do- like get to know my brother and sister, file for divorce, make photo albums, cook new foods, ride my bike more and feel love everyday.
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I want to be you!!! This all sounds like the life I have been looking for, excluding the divorce and adding a kid (time to enjoy San Diego, swimming in the ocean, picking up seaweed on the beach and doing some of the things I have been meaning to do- like get to know my brother and sister, file for divorce, make photo albums, cook new foods, ride my bike more and feel love everyday).
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